I am writting this blog to help me deal with my past, lost, left behind, abused, used and thrown away. How I conquered it, and made a semi normal life despite my trials in my youth.
This blog is not for the faint of heart, I am going to deal with many different issues, and I may say, please don't read if you can't handle topics such as child abuse, sexual abuse, incest, and other topics that can generate strong feelings. This is my story of my REAL LIFE. And overcomming obsticals. I was encouraged by my spirit to start this after watching an episode of Dr Phil last monday, it was grown adults who were looking for their parent, to appologize, or do what is neccesary to forgive them. Dr Phil says you have to forgive to move on, I STRONGLY disagree with his theory. I personally do NOT have to forgive, but accept what has happened to me, and move forward. For forgiveness is NOT for my to give, maybe a higher power of some sort, but no, not me. Not the BIG things, like your sibbling raping you over and over, your father beating you until you were black and blue and had to fake being sick not to change for gym class, for doing so would reveal the bruises and the pain. Forgiveness, NOT fior a father who RFUSED my mother to have open heart surgery at the age of 40 to save her life, he told her no, not until your kids are raised, HELLO, they me, where HIS kid too. And I watched her die in front of my face, standing there unable to do anything at the tender age of 12. So I wil start my journey here in this blog. My past is in fragmented memories, as I am certain that is what abuse does to ones mind. So bear with me if you like, and take my journey to the past with me. WARNING it is not a pretty past. But I DO believe it made me who I am today.
Left Behind.
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